My memory is all muddled. I don't do drugs, never have. I drink occassionally...like once or twice a month. I don't know why my memory is such a daze. It maybe because I don't try to remember things that are not of great importance. My earliest memory is of being a 4 year old going to Ms. Maddie's (next door) while my mom went to work and my aunt Winnie picking me up from there and taking me for french fries at McDonald's. She taught me how to tear the ketchup packet just a little so I could dip my fry inside and pull it out with just enough ketchup on it without making a mess on my clothes. Joy! Joy!
I also remember being in the mall with my Granny and mom and walking up to my grandma Ms. Irene and aunt Booty. My grandma Irene was always small framed and gave tight hugs. She was my father's mother and I longed to run into her and him in the mall together, but she was always with my aunt Booty.
I didn't have memories of my father. I "met" him when I was 13 years old. Any interaction I had with him before that age I cannot recall.
Sometimes I get frustrated that my memory is a daze. Sometimes I panic thinking that perhaps it's a sign of early alzheimer's disease. Sometimes though it's a good thing that I have a dazed memory because some of my past I never want to remember.
Memories don't live like people do
They always 'member you
Whether things are good or bad
It's just the memories that you have
The Beenie Man a sing (say hey)
Boy stop live down inna de past
I also remember being in the mall with my Granny and mom and walking up to my grandma Ms. Irene and aunt Booty. My grandma Irene was always small framed and gave tight hugs. She was my father's mother and I longed to run into her and him in the mall together, but she was always with my aunt Booty.
I didn't have memories of my father. I "met" him when I was 13 years old. Any interaction I had with him before that age I cannot recall.
Sometimes I get frustrated that my memory is a daze. Sometimes I panic thinking that perhaps it's a sign of early alzheimer's disease. Sometimes though it's a good thing that I have a dazed memory because some of my past I never want to remember.
Memories don't live like people do
They always 'member you
Whether things are good or bad
It's just the memories that you have
The Beenie Man a sing (say hey)
Boy stop live down inna de past
Between the daze of faded memories and the haze of a clouded future lies life...
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